Thursday, September 4, 2014

Why My Family Loves Essential Oils

Our journey with essential oils began with this little guy

Last year while I was pregnant with Logan, I was horrifically sick with Hyperemesis Gravidarum. The medication I was on so that I could just keep down sips of water was giving me awful migraines.  The pain from the migraines made me so miserable, and Tylenol just wasn't cutting it.  I started searching for something else.  There must be something else!  I was desperate.  I bought a raw Baltic amber necklace.  I told my husband that I was ready to pay for a rain dance if someone told me it would help my headaches go away.  And then a friend told me that someone was coming over to talk with her about using Essential Oils for her daughter's growing pains...and maybe there would be something for my headaches, too.

I was familiar with Essential Oils.  My mom had sworn by Tea Tree oil for every cut, scrape, and bug bite we ever got as kids.  I had a bottle of Lavender oil that I had bought at (gasp) Target and used to make my Natural Postpartum Gift Set that has brought a lot of traffic to my blog.  But mostly, essential oils were just used in my home as a natural alternative to chemical-filled household cleaners.  I had rid my house of all of those when Kayleigh was born, only using vinegar, baking soda, and essential oils for the past two years.

Jesse and I went to that first Essential Oils class ready for the lady to tell us exactly what we needed for my headaches.  We expected to plunk down $20-$40 for whatever she said would work, and then walk away without ever looking back.  I laugh now to think of it :)

Instead of finding one simple quick fix at the class that night, Jesse and I were completely amazed to learn how many different ailments in our family could be taken care of using Essential Oils.  We walked out that night with a whole new outlook on our healthcare.  We boxed up our OTC meds (and eventually our prescriptions!) and have never looked back.

Essential Oils are now our way of life.  I'm so thankful that I can care for my little ones at home instead of having to run to the doctor for every little thing.  What a difference that makes!  Instead of feeling helpless as parents when our children are sick, Jesse and I are empowered.

We have spent the last year researching articles, learning from others who use Essential Oils, listening to experts in the field, and using our oils every day.  We use them for everything from allergies to headaches, colds, cuts, insomnia, muscle pain, toddler fevers, tummy bugs, teething, and tantrums.

When it comes down to it, here is why I'm so passionate about using Essential Oils for my family:
  • I've always been cautious about medication.  Several beloved family members have dealt with addictions to "properly prescribed" medications--something I never want to encounter!  I avoided medication as much as I could (even though I was a frequent migraine sufferer), and I cringed every time I gave Kayleigh Tylenol for a fever or for teething pain (read this! it's scary!!)
  • Also, healthcare is expensive!  I don't know about you, but it costs us a $50 copay every time we go to the doctor.  Two years ago, between our three family members, we went to the doctor about 10 times for colds, fevers, ear infections, and allergies.  That adds up to a lot of money spent on copays, and I'd much rather invest that money into preventative healthcare in the first place so that we can avoid making that many trips in the future.  We made that switch last year--and guess how many sick trips we made to the doctor?  Zero!

This isn't to say that I'm anti-doctor.  I love the pediatrician, OB, and GP who care for us.  I'm also not saying I'm anti-medication.  I believe that both have a time and a place, and I'm thankful that they're available when needed.  In the meantime, though, I'm so, soooooo thankful that God led us to Essential Oils.  Along with our the birth of our little Logan, Essential Oils were one of the biggest blessings that came to our family last year.

Essential Oils are just too wonderful to keep to ourselves.  Jesse and I are excited to launch our new website, New Leaf Essentials, and are looking forward to sharing more about these amazing natural solutions with you!

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Tuesday, August 19, 2014

8 Month Letter to Logan


Every day, someone comments, "He's getting so big!"

And you are.  And a little bit of me cries each time it's said.  You're growing into your puppy feet and your hair is so long it's falling into your eyes and spilling down your neck.  Your legs are strong enough for you to stand on, and you're like a speed demon when it comes to crawling these days.  You relish in exploring new tastes and foods, and your chubby little fingers are getting better at grasping small pieces and bringing them to your mouth.  You're growing, growing, growing.  But you know what?  Right now, this very second, you're the smallest you'll ever be again, and so I just smile and kiss your chubby cheeks and let people comment away about how big you're getting.  You're still so small to me.

Your chubby rolls are so kissable, and you snuggle in so sweetly.  You love to be held, worn, are still our "heartbeat baby."  You have two sharp and sparkly little teeth, and as much as you enjoy eating new foods, your favorite is still Momma's milk.

Our nursing relationship started out pretty rocky.  You've never been easy to nurse, but I think this month has been the best yet.  I love this time we share together.  As you keep growing up and gaining independence, you need me less and less.  For the first 6 months of your life, I could barely ever set you down.  You woke up as soon as your skin touched mine, and you would cry as if you were in physical pain.  You're still like that 30% of the the time, but I know the day will come all too soon when you won't even fit on my lap anymore.  As much as I love our togetherness right now, I promise to you right now that I will never be the creepy mom from "Love You Forever" who climbs in through her grown son's bedroom window to hold him and rock him at night.

This is our time right now, baby, and oh, I love it so much!

You and Kayleigh are still the best of friends.  You adore her so much that I have to use the baby gate to block you from the hallway when she is sleeping so that you don't crawl to her door and call to her.  When it is time for her to wake up, all I have to do is say, "Let's go get Kayleigh" and you bolt down the hallway squealing with joy.  She is so protective of you and does a great job of following you around and taking things away from you that are not safe for you to have.  She always replaces the no-no item with one of your toys, and it makes my heart burst to see how lovingly she takes care of you.  The two of you play so well together.  It makes me so happy to watch!


I can't end this letter without talking about how much you love your daddy.  You follow him around like a puppy when he's home, and have recently joined the daily farewell at the door--except that you don't stop at the door, you crawl after him like you hope he'll take you with him.  You have also figured out that Daddy is the best rough houser around.  He can make you laugh like no other.

We love you so much, Logan Mark.  These are happy, happy days, and we are so thankful that you're part of our family.


Nicknames: Boyo, Little Man, Logan Mark, Puppy, Lois (Kayleigh came up with that this month.  She also calls you Quincy.  I have no idea why.)
Temperament: Happy, hands-on, becoming more independent 
Things I Could Do Without:  Teething.  I'm thankful we have oils to help you feel better!
Things You Could Do Without: Us interfering with your curiosity.  Mom, don't take me away from there!  That outlet looks really tasty!  What do you mean I can't suck on the trash can?
Item/Toy We Love The Most:  The little musical activity table.  You stand at it now and boogie to the music, just like Kayleigh used to.  It makes me happy.
Item/Toy You Love The Most:  Kayleigh.  Kayleigh is absolutely, hands-down, your favorite.  The vertical blinds in the living room are a close second.
Things I'm Loving Most Right Now:  The way you blow kisses, giggle when we tickle your belly, and the way you clap when you're happy.  (It looks more like "make it rain," but it's so cute)
Things You're Loving Most Right Now: Blowing raspberries, blowing kisses, biting our toes as stealthily as you can, and singing your heart out.
Sounds/Words: You say "Momma" and "Dadda" and "Hi!"  We haven't identified you trying to say Kayleigh's name, but you know exactly who we're talking about when her name is spoken.
Foods You Like:  You still love milk, but you're also having a lot of fun trying new things.  Some current favorites: Sweet Potato, Avocado, Banana, Peach, and those little finger food puffs.  We're going the Baby Led Weaning route and letting you sample healthy, soft foods from our plates and feed yourself.  You're doing great!  You're also obsessed with drinking water out of a cup.  You are so proud of your little big boy self!
Milestones: Standing up unassisted, developing very good fine motor skills by self-feeding.  Drinking from a sippy cup and a straw cup.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

5 Month Letter to Logan

My baby boy,

I had a list of things I had planned to do tonight, but then you fell asleep on my chest while I was washing dishes and I just had to sit down and treasure it.  You're 5 months old today, Logan, and you're in such a hurry to not be a baby any more that whenever you do something so preciously newborn-esque, I can't help but stop to enjoy it.

These moments with chubby cheeks and dimpled fingers pressed against my skin while you sleep...sweaty brown hair curling at your neck...little twitches that remind me that you never stop moving--even in your sleep.  The way you lift your head, lock eyes with me, and then settle in again once you're content that we're still as we were when you drifted off.

I'm so proud of my big boy and so sad at how quickly your babyhood is disappearing.  I'm constantly caught between deciding which emotion to allow to lead.  You are solidly in 9 month clothing now, and everyone thinks you're at least that old based on your size.  You are so strong and so inquisitive.  You reach for anything in your path and grab at it with very clumsy little chubby hands.  I can tell that you are going to love big people food when we let you have a taste of it.  You eye everything on our plates and try your best to grab it right off our forks.

You truly delight in your sister.  And she delights in you.  Every time you hear Kayleigh's name, you sit up a bit straighter and search for her with excited eyes.  She kisses you and sings to you and often has to be reminded about "gentle love" because her love for you is so fierce.  Please always be best friends.  I know there will be days with squabbles and anger between the two of you, but please always love her.  God gave us siblings as our first best friends.  I treasure the relationship I have with your Uncle Jon Jon.  I'm sure he could tell you a thing or two about growing up with an older sister :)

Nights are becoming so much better.  You're frequently a night owl, but when you do go to sleep, you usually sleep through the night or only wake up once.  We like that.  I'm hoping you'll soon learn how to fall asleep without being swaddled and nursed to sleep.  Right now, you just kind of lose it when you're tired and nothing will work to calm you except to swaddle you and nurse you to sleep.  Dad's out of luck in that area, so please find something we can both do to appease you!

Teeth are coming in, so that makes life hard sometimes.  It seems like they are all coming at the same pace.  You have six swollen little spots on your poor gums.  I wonder when they will come in...and if they'll pop up all at once?  We calm you with oils and use them on your jaw for pain--what a difference it makes!  You''re also sporting some baltic amber these days.  Aren't we a crunchy family?  Lol!

We love our strong little boy so much.  Always use your strength and passion for God's purposes.  We've already started praying to that end.

Love, Mom

Nicknames: Boyo (Daddy's new name for you), Little Man, Logan Mark, Puppy, Chubbers
Temperament: Inquisitive.  Wanting to be a part of everything.  
Things I Could Do Without:  Teething.  It's so sad to see you like this!
Things You Could Do Without:  Teething.  It almost makes you more miserable than it makes me! ;-)
Item/Toy We Love The Most:  Right now, ice teethers.  They give you something to take your pain and anger out on.
Item/Toy You Love The Most:  The jumper is still a favorite.  You also recently discovered balls and the wooden bead maze toy.  It's fun to watch you try to grasp at them.
Things I'm Loving Most Right Now:  You're becoming more independent and able to entertain yourself for longer amounts of time.
Things You're Loving Most Right Now: Being a big boy!  Sitting up for longer periods of time (if we help you sit up--you're not able to do it yourself yet).  Playing with bigger toys.
Sounds/Words: You are getting loud!  Happy coos and shrieks .  You even startle yourself sometimes!
Foods You Like:  Milk...though I have a feeling you'd be totally happy at this point if we handed you a cheeseburger.  Pretty soon, Little Man.
Milestones: Eating your toes, sitting for longer periods, first round of teething, first trip to the beach.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

4 Month Letter to Logan

Hey there Little Man,

It dawned on me today that I'd better call you that as long as I's barely true any more!  You have gone through a huge growth spurt, from 7lbs9oz at the hospital, to over 17lbs four months later.  You are currently more than half of Kayleigh's weight and more than half her height--and she has a 26 month head start on you!  I wonder how long it will be before things even out?

You're already in 6 month clothing, and the little Carter's jeans you wore today were a little long, but they were size 9 months.  Eek!  I'm sure it'll feel like 2 weeks from now that we're going through the shoe store trying to find dress shoes in size 14 for your first dance.  Slow down, baby.

You still would rather be held over anything else, but you're starting to be ok if we put you down for a little while.  Mostly in the mornings, but hey, we'll take it!  You rolled over for the first time on March 19th, and boy were you proud of yourself!  Since that day, you've seemed much more content to be on your own.  You are getting so strong.  You're able to support your upper body all by yourself, so we set up your jumper last week.  It's cute to watch you bounce up and down as you kick your little legs off the ground and try to grab at the toys around the jumper.  I have a feeling that thing is going to be a favorite for a long time!

About 3 weeks ago, you finally started sleeping in your cradle for more than 15 minutes at a time.  We've always teased that you're a heartbeat baby--if what you're sleeping on doesn't have a heartbeat, you'll wake up right away (this is still 100% true during the day).  We're at the point where we can put you in your cradle when we go to bed, and you'll sleep through til about 4am, usually.  When I hear you stir and cry, I go into your room and bring you back to our bed.  I'm much more rested when you're only with me for a few hours instead of wiggling and kicking me all night long!  And oh, I love your sleepy smiles and sweet little snores.  I don't want to jinx myself, but you have slept straight through the night (9 hours each time!) three of the last four nights.  Here's hoping!!!

People tell me all the time that I need to start letting you get used to not being held all the time.  I used to secretly think the same about other moms I saw who never put their babies down.  What I didn't realize back then is how big of a factor the baby's personality is.  I've long since stopped comparing you to your sister and just love you for who you are--and right now, you need to be held.  Truthfully, at first, it exasperated me.  I didn't know how to parent two children when my arms were always filled with one.  But you know what, Logan?  Your eyes are so full of love.  I've never seen a baby express that much emotion with tiny little eyes that are still learning to focus.  When you look at me, I can just feel the love pouring out of you.  I know God has big plans for that beautiful heart of yours.  I've started praying for it daily.  I think, as mothers, we see our children's strengths early.  I pray that your heart will always be full of love for those around you, that you'll have a big servant's heart like your daddy's, that God will use your heart to bring others to Him.

Your giggles are in full swing these days.  I love to hear you laugh!  It doesn't take much at all--just a happy glance your way, and you're giggling and squealing for more.  Something that can always make you laugh right now is when we take your little arms and raise them above your head, then bring them back down to your lap.  I have no idea why.  You just think it's hilarious, though, so we do it all the time.  I hope you're always this easy to entertain!

It is so much fun to watch you and Kayleigh together.  The conversations you two hold together!  My heart just bursts with joy and treasures these times where, in each others' eyes, you can do no wrong.  I know the days will come when I'll wish we were right back here, where there is no fighting, no name-calling, and no tattling.  These are precious days.  I try my best to treasure them in my heart.

Hobbes was bigger than YOU when you were born!

Four months old, already, Logan Mark.  The days are just flying by and I feel like I'm already grasping at them to come back.

We love our boy so much!

Love, Mom

Nicknames: Smiley Boy, Mr. Logan, Little Man, Logan Mark
Temperament: Momma's boy :)  
Things I Could Do Without:  Your frantic cries from the other room while I try to tuck Kayleigh in for bed.  Nap/bedtime is the hardest part of my day, having to leave you out there while I spend a few moments of one-on-one time with your sister.  But you get it all day long, and she deserves some Mommy time, too.
Things You Could Do Without:  Ever being out of my sight :)
Item/Toy We Love The Most:  The jumper is our new favorite thing!  It's so much fun to watch you.  You're getting stronger every day!
Item/Toy You Love The Most:  You haven't really attached to any toy.  You love your fingers.  You're still not a thumbsucker, but you will suck on any part of your hand that goes into your mouth.  Sometimes, both hands at once!
Things I'm Loving Most Right Now:  Your belly-laugh.  My goodness, no one can listen to that and resist smiling.  I hope you can always spread joy this easily!
Things You're Loving Most Right Now: Blowing raspberries, laughing at Kayleigh, being held.
Sounds/Words: Kayleigh tries to translate your sentences for us.  It's pretty humorous.
Foods You Like: Momma's milk, but NEVER from a bottle.  On the few occasions I've left you behind, you've cried and made it very clear that you'd rather starve than try a bottle.  Oh boy.
Milestones: Rolling over! You're also very close to being able to tripod.  Sometimes you can sit up by yourself for about 30 seconds without even using your hands.  Your strength amazes me!  What will this upcoming month bring?

Friday, January 31, 2014

Two Month Letter to Logan

Dear Logan,

I'm writing this letter to you while you're curled up on my chest, sound asleep.  That's the way we do life these days--you and me, always together.  What a little cuddle bug you are!  When my arms are crying for a break, but you're crying that you don't want to be put down, I just snuggle you in harder and remember to cherish these moments because I know you won't always want to be this close to me.  It's a funny thing to have to remember to cherish something.  Maybe you won't understand this because you'll never be a mom, but I hope someday you'll be a dad.  And when you are, I hope you'll be as good at coming home and rescuing your tired wife like your daddy is so good at rescuing me.  You were born into a home full of so much love, baby boy.

Speaking of things to cherish, I will always treasure these sweet moments of watching you with your sister Kayleigh.  It amazes me what best little friends the two of you are already.  Getting to see you is the first thing she asks for every morning.  She covers you with kisses, and we often have to remind her to stop and let you breathe.  She loves you so much!  You love her, too (even though you usually cry like a typical boy whenever she smothers you with kisses) and I love the way you smile at her as she talks to you or sings to you.  Daddy and I pray every day that you will always have such a close relationship.  My brother is one of my favorite people in the world.  The spacing between you and Kayleigh is almost the same as between your Uncle Jon and me.  I praise God that you and Kayleigh have each other to go through life's adventures.

You are growing so fast.  You've nearly doubled your weight since birth--what a chunker!  Your rolls are filling out, and you've definitely added another chin or two this month.  You're solidly into size 3 month clothing already.  Even though you were smaller than Kayleigh was at birth, I think you're working hard to catch up to her now!

Your baptism was two weeks ago.  What a beautiful, special day!  Daddy got to baptize you, and you wore a beautiful little baptism outfit that was lovingly made by your Grammy.  It was a small gathering since so many of our loved ones have been dealing with illnesses, and your aunts and uncle are so far away right now, but it was a day covered in love.  Yiayia, Papa and Grammy, Tyler, Stacey, and Bine Stover, Matt and Emily Terhune, Greg Wilson, and Jim and Charlotte Friebus all came to the service to celebrate your special day.  Tyler and Stacey are your godparents.  They have been dear friends of ours ever since Daddy and I have been married, and they love you and your sister very much.

You make our days brighter, little guy.  Our days brighter, and our nights longer.  Much, much longer!  Work on sleeping at night and being awake during the day, ok?  Mommy and Daddy love your bright, smiley face!  (We'd also love to not see it at 3am).

We love you so much!

Love, Mom

Nicknames: Puppy, Smiley Boy, Mr. Logan, Floppy Puppy, Snuggle Puppy, Chubbers
Temperament: Happy when being held
Things I Could Do Without: The fact that you will only sleep at night if you're in bed next to me.  I've always been so cautious about SIDS, and the fact that I don't get to sleep unless you're in bed makes me so nervous.  It also means that even when I'm sleeping, I'm not really getting good sleep...
Things You Could Do Without: Being put down.  Ever.  You hate being put in the cradle, the bouncer, the rock 'n' play...even being set down on the changing table is enough separation to break your little heart.
Item/Toy We Love The Most:  Our Ergo and Moby.  They allow us to hold you while still accomplishing things we need to do (Public Service Announcement: Life with two kids doesn't go on pause when the baby needs to be held.  Boooooy are we learning that!)
Item/Toy You Love The Most:  You're trying hard to find your thumb, I think.  I've tried to help you, but it seems to be something you need to discover on your own.  Maybe you'll be able to self-soothe when you find it!  That's my hope...
Things I'm Loving Most Right Now: I love it when you chuckle  in your sleep.  It's the cutest thing!  I also love all the smiles and chuckles we get when you're awake now, too.
Things You're Loving Most Right Now:  You smile when we tickle you or give you kisses.  You also love to be sung to--whether it's Kayleigh singing to you or Dad or me.  But really, you're happy no matter what as long as you're in someone's arms.
Sounds/Words: You coo and interact with us and it makes my heart burst.  I'm looking forward to so many things to come!
Foods You Like: This answer is going to be the same for a while :)  Milk!  We haven't introduced you to a bottle yet.  You and I have never been separated long enough for you to need one!
Milestones: Baptism!  Welcome to the family of God, our sweet little one!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy New Year from the Brubakers!

As Jesse and I watched the clock slowly creep toward midnight last night, we reflected on the past year.
What a year!
2013 was not what I expected.  At all.

A year ago last night, Jesse and I were toasting to the financial freedom we were looking forward to in 2013.  With two stable jobs, we thought we'd be set.  I was envisioning the amount of growth my blog would experience in 2013, looking forward to the new connections I would make and the friendships that would deepen through it.  Our daughter's second year of life was certainly one to look forward to, and Jesse and I were excited to see how much she would grow in the coming year.

And then the year settled in, and with it, a lot of surprises!  The week that I found out my ESL teaching position had been cut from the school budget was the week I found out we were expecting a new baby.  I was beyond sick for pretty much all but two months of my pregnancy.  We moved to be closer to Jesse's job, but the additional monthly expense of that move has added a great amount of stress.  I wrote 11 posts for my blog in 2013.  Eleven!  I've missed this so much, but at the same time, there was just no room in life for blogging this past year.

It's been a challenging year, for sure, but oh, such happy things have come from it!

Jesse and I celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary this year.  Even though I was too sick to take a big trip, we stayed at a lovely hotel 20 minutes from our house and enjoyed two nights away where we could enjoy each other and reflect on God's goodness to us in the past 5 years.  I'm so, so thankful for this wonderful man God provided for me.  The way he loves me, serves me, leads me, and cares for his family is so humbling and exhilarating.  I am beyond blessed to be his wife!

Our sweet Kayleigh Grace turned two in September.  She has grown so much this year, and is such a wonderful big sister to "Bebe Logan."  She loves him so much.  Jesse and I are constantly smiling and shaking our heads in amazement over what a smart little girl she has grown into-- and with such a beautiful heart!  She is entering the stage now where she makes up her own songs, astonishes us with her observations, and memorizes and "reads" back to you all of her favorite books.  We are loving this stage with our sweet girl!

Little Logan Mark joined our family on December 6th.  He is such a blessing from God, and I can't wait to share his miraculous birth story with you.  Having a second child has definitely thrown Jesse and me into the world of being truly grown up.  All it takes is saying "the kids," and you instantly feel older!  In his nearly one month of existence, Logan has stolen our hearts.  He is a very easy baby, loves to be held, and makes the cutest sleepy grunts and sighs you've ever heard.  I'm seriously going to have to get it on video so that I never forget this sweet stage in his life.

 Many other wonderful blessings have come our way this past year, and I can't wait to tell you about them.  As life settles in for this new little family of four, I dearly hope that I'll have time to return to this beloved space and share in life with you again.  Thinking forward to 2014, I'm excited.  2013 taught me that God continues to bless you above and beyond even when nothing turns out the way you had expected it to.  I'm thankful for that, and I'm looking forward to seeing His plans for us in the coming year!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013


Jesse and I have each loved the name Logan since before we met each other.  It's been on our "boy list" for a long, long time.  We decided to give our son's middle name after my dad, Mark.  Our little Logan will be blessed to grow up with the two most wonderful men I know--his daddy and his papa.  I'm so thankful for this!

Exactly a week after we found out that I was pregnant, I was hit with Hyperemesis Gravidarum again.  If you've been following my blog since my days of pregnancy with Kayleigh, you might remember how completely incapacitated I was during  my first trimester.  I had hoped that it was just a complication with that pregnancy, and was really hoping that it wouldn't happen again.  However, apparently that's just how I do pregnancy.  Fun stuff.  This time, though, instead of being sick from weeks 8-14 like I was with Kayleigh, I was sick from weeks 6-20.  And I had a toddler.  Like I said, fun stuff :)

When I was 14 weeks along, I experienced bleeding and ended up in the ER.  It was the scariest day of my life.  Thankfully the baby was ok, but the doctors put me on strict bed rest until week 20.  I couldn't do anything more exerting than walking, and wasn't allowed to lift my little girl.  It broke my heart!  God was so good, though, and saw us through it.  We were blessed by family members, church family, and friends coming out of the woodwork to help us.  People brought us meals, came to clean our house, and gave me entire days to rest while they entertained Kayleigh for me.  We were humbled and exhilarated  by the love that we received during that very difficult time.

I'm 30 weeks along now, and finally feel like I'm rocking this pregnancy thing.  I can't believe we only have about 10 more weeks until we meet our little guy!  Jesse and I preregistered at our hospital yesterday.  We are so thankful that Logan will be delivered at the same hospital where Kayleigh was born.  We love the people there.

Jesse and I don't feel like it's really sunk in yet that we're having another baby.  Pregnancy is one thing, but bringing home another little person is such a crazy idea right now.  We're over the moon excited, but at the same time, it's hard to wrap our minds around.  A baby.  We've done that before.  But we've never added one when we already have another.  Sometimes we feel like we've just figured out how to do this whole parenting thing with one.  Other days, we still feel like we don't know what we're doing.  And yet here we are, adding another one to the mix?!?

All it takes though, is snuggling someone else's newborn, or looking at pictures on Facebook of friends with their fresh little squishes.  It takes me back to the days of milky tongues and feathery hair that smells so, so good.  I can't wait to bring our little Logan home, to cuddle in bed with both of our children in the mornings, to teach Kayleigh how to help take care of her little brother.  Watching her lovingly pat my tummy and give "Baby Logan" kisses is enough to make my heart burst.  

Before Kayleigh was born, I remember crying to Jesse that I didn't know how there would be enough room in my heart to love another as much as I love him.  Kayleigh's arrival showed me that hearts aren't confined to a certain amount of love--they keep growing and growing.  10 more weeks, and I know this heart will triple in size.